Friday, September 4, 2009 @ 5:07 AM
My beloved ah ma left me on 29 August 2009. She left without telling me anything. I only spoke to her less than 5s that very day. She chose the most cruel way to leave this world, till now i cannot believe she left in this way.
Whenever i close my eyes, i can forsee the way she die. It must be very painful. I chose to pluck up my courage to see her body in the mountary room. It is very sad that all relatives cannot see her the last time casue the coffin was closed.
I kept on remembering the way she look after me, the way she call me etc..
Always i know that with her leaving me one day, i will sure break down. Sometimes till now i still cannot believe that she really left me. Sometimes i just hope she could call me again.. Always one will have regret.... Probably in life i have not meet such a great impact. its a really big impact on me.
Its like a big change in life. everyday come home, i wont get to call ah ma, nobody to hear me complain, nobody to call me when i am not home, noboday to say that i always celebrating cny with new clothes, nobody cooks for me, nobody cover the blanket for me, nobody wakes me up, nobody protect me, nobody for me to sa jiao.
I REALLY MISS U!
